Do not let someone be a priority in your life if you're just an option in theirs.
I believe pretty well that I am just an option. What else could I be in this sticky and ugly situation? He doesn't have regard to what I am feeling, admit it or not. He is too clouded by his head that he forgets to recognize the hurt I am feeling and the love I am giving. IF indeed I was a priority in his life, I wouldnt be in this kind of situation. He wouldnt have to deliberate things with himself and entertain the possibility of losing me. I gave him my heart, especially during the times he needed me beside him. If he would just take it away from me and then decide to crush it in the end, then he could have just given me sudden death. How could he have been so selfish? His past relationship could have triggered this possibly, nonetheless, it is no reason for him to vent it out to others. If there should be someone to pay the price with the hurt he undergone, it should have been her and nobody else. It makes me wonder whether she was indeed that kind of a bitch to turn him into something like this. I have let myself love so much a grouch, a monster without utter regard to his surroundings and to the love being given to him. He told me once that he consciously drives away some girls who might be interested at him or something like that. What made me different? He could have just pushed me away just like the others. But he drew me in and now, he consciously I think gives me this treatment--this kind of seduction that is bittersweet and painful. Leading you on and then leaving you blank...
I believe pretty well that I am just an option. What else could I be in this sticky and ugly situation? He doesn't have regard to what I am feeling, admit it or not. He is too clouded by his head that he forgets to recognize the hurt I am feeling and the love I am giving. IF indeed I was a priority in his life, I wouldnt be in this kind of situation. He wouldnt have to deliberate things with himself and entertain the possibility of losing me. I gave him my heart, especially during the times he needed me beside him. If he would just take it away from me and then decide to crush it in the end, then he could have just given me sudden death. How could he have been so selfish? His past relationship could have triggered this possibly, nonetheless, it is no reason for him to vent it out to others. If there should be someone to pay the price with the hurt he undergone, it should have been her and nobody else. It makes me wonder whether she was indeed that kind of a bitch to turn him into something like this. I have let myself love so much a grouch, a monster without utter regard to his surroundings and to the love being given to him. He told me once that he consciously drives away some girls who might be interested at him or something like that. What made me different? He could have just pushed me away just like the others. But he drew me in and now, he consciously I think gives me this treatment--this kind of seduction that is bittersweet and painful. Leading you on and then leaving you blank...
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