Exchange of heart

It is just a thought but I know it is very much a reality that you can come up with a decision of leaving me behind and dropping me off, without regard to whatever feelings I or we have between us. It is a selfish endeavor and the thought that it is for the best..for the mind must prevail over the heart is bull...because it is without respect to what another can feel. I pray that you will do what's right. I pray that you will not hurt me and throw my love away. Because if you do, my heart will even be more shattered and my life will be a bittersweet symphony. I must do what I ought to do. I will pull myself together and focus on whats ought to be done. My life shouldnt revolve around you now. I have tried my best to do this and I admit that it is hard since just a simple hello brings me back to you. But I have to learn. I have to stand up on my own. I have my self-worth that's a million times over your league--which I most of the time forget because of you. And it is painful..truly painful that in reality, you can resolve to just neglect it. I remember you pointing to me a girl and said that she almost became your girlfriend. Why didnt you end up together? Was it the same episode as us? Well I pity her then since she could have possibly been in my same predicament and shitty proposition. I have to breathe. I have to swim towards the surface and breathe. For once, I want to see you cry because of me. I want you to feel my pain and hurt. Let it eat you for even a day. Let's have an exchange of heart and see if you will fall apart as well.

~@~

One sided love broke the seaside down
And I took it rough when I hit the ground
That you went your way and I went half wild
But girl you'ld understand, if your heart was mine

If we had an exchange of heart,
Then you'ld know why I fell apart
You'ld feel the pain
When the memories start
If we had an exchange of heart
I'd never wish a lonely heart ungood,
It's not your fault I chose to play the fool
One day may come when you'll be in my shoes,
That your heart will break and you'll feel just like I do
Oh time turns the tables, and soon I'll be able,
To find a new romance
And if you'll remember, my love warm and tender,
Too late for a second chance
If we had an exchange of heart,
Then you'ld know why I fell apart
You'ld feel the pain
When the memories start
If we had an exchange of heart
If we had an exchange of heart...