Back To You

I have to admit. There is no day that passes without thinking of you. Almost everything I see reminds me of you and its extra harder especially when I want a moment of peace--a moment in my day when you are not there and I have time for myself alone. But you are selfish. The thought of you is selfish, it doesnt want to leave me. It forever haunts me. And with the memory comes the feeling, the feeling that keeps on grasping hard, fighting hard...just to get out and surface itself. I cannot deny my feelings for you and I kind of feel stupid in a way because I have thrown unconsciously the white flag to you...I guess even long before you have realized that you have won me already. But the battle doesnt end there because even if I knew within myself my heart was taken away, there is still restraint. Dont expect any day soon that I will expose myself even more and tell you what I feel. I am still rational and wise enough not to do that stupid thing. I wont tell you that I love you. I still have my self-control. You have to make the first move. I am not going to make myself susceptible to more hurt and more pain and more taking for granted, just like before. No my dear. And even though our situation makes it harder for me, it just means that I have to fight harder. Hold the fort stronger than ever. It is bittersweet. You and I, we are bittersweet. I have said earlier, everything reminds me of you. Show me something. Tell me something. And your name will tag along. Blame it to the memories we have of each other. Blame it to the first experiences of many things that you and me were together at. And even though I want to clear myself of you, that would be difficult. It is difficult because I am always back at you...

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Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late

Over you
I'm never over
Over you
Something about you
It's just the way you move
The way you move me

Oh, I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit every game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away
This way

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
With your silhouette

Oh, should have smiled in that picture
If it's the last that I'll see of you
It's the least that you
Could not do

Leave the light on,
I'll never give up on you,
Leave the light on,
For me too, for me too

Yeah...

Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be