Just an update on how I am recently--
The other day I was just sobbing all over the place whenever I am alone. I was hurt due to the fact that I couldn't accept the fact that he still is not over his ex. I inadvertedly discovered something which drastically broke my heart. I was aloof at first but I slowly recovered from it. I am still casual with the person as if nothing happened. I made some thinking after those sobbing episodes, went into therapy c/o my best buds and closest blockmates. I made a resolve then. I will consciously take care of myself now. I will not wait anymore. He is not worth waiting and besides, he tells me that he doesnt want anyone to wait for him. I don't feel any anger towards him. But honestly, my heart was so broken that to have all these resolves, I have turned into a non-believer and cynical at that. I don't want to believe anymore positive about the possibility of moving forward our friendship. As of now, we are close friends. And this song I heard from A Fine Frenzy is not in anyway to say that we are lovers who found each other but a song which symbolizes how we became friends. This song also I dedicate to my close friends out there. We were put into each other lives by fate. I am grateful.
~@~
"You Picked Me"
One, two, three
Counting out the signs we see
The tall buildings
Fading in the distance
Only dots on a map
Four, five, six
The two of us a perfect fit
You're all mine, all mine
And all I can say
Is you blow me away
Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me
So softly
Rain against the windows
And the strong coffee
Warming up my fingers
In this fisherman's house
You got me
Searched the sand
And climbed the tree
And brought me back down
And all I can say
Is you blow me away
Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me
